Schwann. People thought he was a war hero but that was a lie. He just existed to be the commandants sword and kill anyone who stood in his way. So he never bothered having any feelings that'd make that hard.
[Well, if she killed for that, then the part about her wanting to be friends with the princess must be true in some way, even if perhaps a roundabout way.]
... In that case, for whatever it's worth, I stand by what I said. I'm sure my princess would be friends with you, too. [Even after all of this, apparently??]
[He doesn't really like talking about this, but he feels like he needs to even the playing field a little;]
I did something real bad, Ange. Schwann- [No. Shakes his head. He can't distance himself from this;] I was told ta take her away. I delivered her ta my boss knowing he was gonna hurt her. She suffered so much because of what I did. [Closing his eyes.]
I didn't deserve her forgiveness. But she gave it, she even comforted me, as if I was the one who'd been hurt. That's the sorta girl she is.
I suppose so? The lot of us are, hopefully her kindness won't get her killed if only because she's got a whole bunch of us meaner people keepin' an eye on her.
[In any case.]
Can I ask how someone yer age ended up doing the work ya do? [Why is a teen girl a murder spy.]
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You're reminding me too much of him.
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Who are you referring to?
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[Surprise, Schwann was basically an assassin.]
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After all, to have felt that lacking desire to live, that willingness to die... well, of course there were similarities.]
... I see. It does explain more than it doesn't about that moment.
I... I am not sure what it is worth anymore in this place, but I am not an assassin. I am a spy. To me... that distinction is important.
[But she's aware it doesn't hold much weight considering she killed here.]
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S'different enough. That's what I do. When yer a spy killing's more of a last resort.
[Not that he isn't ready for it.]
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Correct. Naturally, though, I was prepared to do what needed to be done.
That is why you ended up where you did.
[because she is Bad.]
But I felt as though you at least...deserved a few answers.
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... How long were you planning it? When you told me all that about the princess and told me you were gonna take care of me...
Is that what you meant?
["take care of"]
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[...]
I killed you for the memories of that princess. But at that moment, I did not have any definitive plans to remove you.
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... In that case, for whatever it's worth, I stand by what I said. I'm sure my princess would be friends with you, too.
[Even after all of this, apparently??]
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That is...
It is that kind heart of yours that made me think you would be an easy mark.
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It ain't mine, it's hers.
[He doesn't really like talking about this, but he feels like he needs to even the playing field a little;]
I did something real bad, Ange. Schwann- [No. Shakes his head. He can't distance himself from this;] I was told ta take her away. I delivered her ta my boss knowing he was gonna hurt her. She suffered so much because of what I did.
[Closing his eyes.]
I didn't deserve her forgiveness. But she gave it, she even comforted me, as if I was the one who'd been hurt. That's the sorta girl she is.
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People who are that kind generally get themselves killed.
[...]
I suspect you are looking out for her now, after all of that? I suppose as far as atonement goes... it isn't a terrible one.
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[In any case.]
Can I ask how someone yer age ended up doing the work ya do?
[Why is a teen girl a murder spy.]
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... I was picked up off the streets. The story is not much more interesting than that.
The Commonwealth intelligence gave me a place to learn and live, so I did both.